Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Missing my G'ma tonight.

So, this might be a bit depressing, but I figured I'd post it anyway. I miss my G'ma so much it hurts, so I thought maybe writing her a letter would help? Who knows. But here it is.

I miss you. Its been such a long time, but I still wish you were here everyday. I wish you could be here to see what I've become, to see my children grow, to make me smile the way you did. It still hurts so deep in my heart when I look at your photos and know that I can't reach out and touch you. Its just not fair. People say that time heals everything, well I know that is just not true.
I have always regretted not letting you know how much I love you. I loved (and still do love) you so much G'ma. You were my rock when mom failed to be. You always knew just what to say, even about boys! GASP!! You put up with my crap, and still smiled. And moms and Aunt Janets lol! I just wish you were still here to put us in our place!
The other day I spelled grandma the way you told me to, G'ma, and my sister in law looked at me like I was crazy! You know, I didn't even know that wasn't the norm until that day! I just thought everyone abbreviated it like that, and who knows maybe they do, and my SIL is the one lost!
I got so mad the other day, the picture that you always had up in your living room of the two ships is now in my hallway. Jason ran into it and broke the frame. I got so upset and of course I cried because Im an emotional freak! But I think Im going to try to make it into a blanket. So it might be a good thing!
Anyway, I hope that you can look down and see us, and I hope that you are happy with what you see. Everything I am is because you made me that way! I love you and I miss you!
Always G'ma's Girl,
Sheila Marie


silverhartgirl said...

Hugs, I know your g'ma knows how much you love and miss her. This was such a sweet post

Carebear said...

Beautiful and touchingly sad. Your grandma sounds like one special lady. I'm sure she knows how important she's been in your life. Sending you a ((HUG)). Thanks so much for entering my Cheesecake Factory giveaway, and for becoming a follower! I hope you enjoy my blog! I try to visit at least 2 of my followers daily to spread comment love so I’ll be seeing you soon! One more ((HUG)) before I go!

shopannies said...

such a sweet sweet post. I feel the same way about my dad and grandma I feel they were taken from us too soon